also i've realised that i stopped blogging because it got to the point where even though so much was going i never could write about it. my journal which was filled on every page has some significantly blank pages now. because writing about what was happening seemed to make it all look too real. if you write it down then maybe the dream will end or you'll realise it's all too good to be true. whatever it was that stopped me writing. i think i need to start writing again. yep. so here's a bit of writing.
the past is a very long time ago
new years was fun. the first day of the year i spent sleeping while watching vampire diaries with my best friend.
the 2nd of january i finished reading my devotion book that talked about how God created men and women.
3rd january. i had a teenage moment where i thought my parents were the enemy.
4th january. i got to have a great time with one of my closest friends.
5th january. i watched this mega depresso but uber romantic movie called bright star, elsie saw titanic for the first time with me, jordan, chris, luke, joel, hollie and clare.
6th january. i watched the stupid depressing movie again and was reminded that i need to wait on Gods timing and remember that waiting for love is worth it, waiting on God is worth it.
7th january. i flew to sydney, to go to kingdom come. i ate a pink person doughnut, me and a friend made up after not talking for a while. Romans 8:28, 31, 34, 37-39. -- we are raised again in Christ as conquorers, as he conqured sin.
8th january: i went to an aquarium, i apparently made out with a dugong, we caught a ferry, i remembered that we need to have no idols, every part of us must be for God. Salvation is impossible through a person.
9th January: we went to the Auburn Salvation Army, and it was really fun. Let's plunder hell and populate heaven. our God saves. i prayed for release from dodgy stuff, and it happened. i rememberd that sin is a waste of time.
10th January: First day of Kingdom Come. Me and Sammy Davis made some really cool friends. 'God needs to be the only name that awakens my soul. the only name that makes me go crazy love aaahhhh' . i realised that maybe i had a crush.
11th january: 'we were made for a reason, we were made to drink from his well and we'll never be thirsty, we were made in his image, we were made to be wise, and to love, and to forgive and to hope and have faith.' today i sung in front of everyone at kingdom come. crush on a boy. hilarious. i wrote today about how much i love my friend sam matear.
12th january: me and sammy davis had a hilarious girly giggly crushin on boy moment on this day. seriously. life.was.so.simple.and.fun. me and elsie hugged, we cried. strange occurances.
13th January: 'sin is broken, death is defeated' last day of kingdom come.
14th january: looking back on this day in the journal, i didn't realise that some things i felt more recently where things i had thought about back at the start of the year. funny how you when you get your hearts desires sometimes it ends i guess.
15th january: i was on these medicationy things that made me really tired, so i slept a lot, woke up, sent a message while barely being concious, then when i was ACTUALLY awake, was mega embaressed. harhar. fun.
16th january: went to anglesea with the currie family today :)
17th january: another day in anglesea with my second family. thinking about love and what it would be like to be in love. watched the freakiest movie EVER. had an awesome day with elsie and the family :)
18th January: a little crush on a boy best friend. that was the complication. that didn't even matter. because life was fun, me and elsie watched Breakfast at Tiffany's and elsie's dog loves me better than he loves her. and i went fishing with elsie and rod. so.much.fun.
19th january: haha seriously for me this is entertaining, my big thought of the day? a boy said i was pretty. oh and the issue of the day... i may be a little bit jealous
20th January: today was the best we went to the beach with pete, sam, ham, britt. it was the best. except that me and elsie got crazy burnt
21st January: when harry met sally is a great movie. 'penguins are the neil patrick harris of the animal kingdom'
22nd january: came home from anglesea and me and elsie helped bec buy something to wear to her 21st. there was one more day until michael proposed to bec. i'd known for weeks.
23rd january: my sister got proposed to today, the start of a new chapter in her and michaels life.
24th january: i love laughing, watching funny videos on youtube. that's what i did all day.
25th January: i love music, that's what i thought about, music.
26th January: today i hung out with elsie, liam, josh and sam. we had a picnic, we danced, we played on the trampolines, we watched a movie. some of the greatest friends.
27nd January: okay, year 12 camp is gay. but i have some great friends and i am really blessed to have great friends
28th January: i didn't want to go back to school.
29th January: becs party, 'i won't worry about tomorrow, giving you my fears and sorrows, where you lead me i will follow' God transforms ordinary people into extraordinary useful tools that he can use by his power and grace
30th January: i am chosen i am free i am living for eternity
31st January: 7th Heaven is the greatest show ever!!! i have an amazing family, i have amazing friends, i have great stuff. life is good.
so january was good.
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