peter returns.

last night i had a dream.
okay, so a while ago i wrote a blog describing a dream i had where this guy and me bought ice cream and pop tarts and went to church, no biggy right? well! knight in shining armour who i named peter.
This is what went down:


I was in the car with two girls, one of them i think was a close friend and the other was a bit of a cow... all of a sudden Peter was in the car sitting next to me. He'd been drinking a bit, he smelt like a brewery. I asked him how tonight went, he was meant to be preaching. He kept dodging the question and was acting like a gone drunk boy. Eventually he said he didn't preach, so i asked why not? He hmm'd and huh'd for a while and eventually said he couldn't because his mum was there and he couldn't preach in front of his mum. Our faces were like... 3cm away from each other and he didn't smell like beer anymore, which is brilliant. He kept whining saying he couldn't talk in front of her, bla bla bla and that annoyed me. So i said, what if what God had put in your heart to say was for her. What if those words were meant for her. What if that's exactly what she needed. Just being my nagging usual self :)
So these other two girls in the car, one was driving and the other kept whispering into the driving girls ear. The girl driving was the one who i was close with but the other girl kept saying stuff to her. "Look, Shez is just trying to get his attention away from you" "You're the one he would be interested in not her, she's just making him not think of you" "She's being selfish and ruining your chances". See? A cow! Because the girl driving wasn't even into him! But this other girl sitting there was winding her up and planting these crap as thoughts in her mind.
We all got out of the car and the two girls went somewhere, i think into his church, i think... But me and Peter were standing around talking, he'd sobered up. Once again, the dream wasn't anything overly exciting but it encouraged me to be a woman that honours her husband, her boyfriend, her whatever. Which is what the bible says to do! So that's pretty awesome when you wake up from a dream feeling like God has revealed something to you, or reaffirmed something in you.


so that was my dream. 




let's see where He leads me.

my future decided.

                                                                         i have a theory that whatever you do   

                                                                                                               you should do it with all of your heart.

me and elsie currie are going to go on the amazing race.

i've been reminded lately about how awesome old school stuff is.

i love looking at old photos. 

i love old family recipes.

i love old vintagey clothes.

i love old school music.

i love old ninties music.

i love old people who don't smell like old people.

today i had an assessment that went for three hours. i wanted to stress about it and worry about my grades. i want to be the best person i can be. if that means that i can't analyse a 'media source' effectively, i'm cool with that...

this is what i get up to when i have free periods at school.

i know nothing about NRL but i need to get me a team. my auntie wants me to go for The Dragons...

my uncle wants me to go for... Wests Tigers? my sister goes for the Canberra Raiders and my other uncle would love it if i went for the South Sydney Rabbitohs ...

 i don't want to be the only person in NSW next year who doesn't have an NRL team! that'd be LAAAME!

God loves you. So much. He loves you so much.

No matter what you've done.

No matter how many lies you've told.

No matter how many people you've slept with.

No matter how many joints you've smoked, beers you've downed. 

No matter what you do or what you will do.

God loves you. So much. He loves you so much.

No matter how many swear words you say.

No matter how many people you hit.

No matter how many tests you cheated on.

No matter how many people you've hurt.

God loves you.

He loves you so much that he doesn't want you to go to hell.

We all deserve hell. But God sent his son, Jesus, to die so that we didn't have to die for our sins.

Now all we have to do is die to our sins and live for Jesus.

It doesn't mean that nothing bad will happen.

It doesn't mean that the storms won't come.

That people won't hurt you.

That sickness won't happen.

But when those things happen, you are attached to a fixed point.

You won't be moved. 

Because God loves you. So much. And he will hold you through your pain.

He's the best. He wants to spend as much time as he can with you. He would do anything to save you. He died the worst death to save you.

And when you love things more than you love God, he is jealous for you. He just wants to overwhelm you with his love.

i'm so excited for next year.

sydney.

sydney.

sydney.

sydney.

in other news. Emma and Dave got married! YEAAAAAH!
they're two of the coolest people i know and they are MARRIED!!!

i can't wait to get married. it'll be the best.

firsts things first.

Its always been a mystery to me,
How two hearts can come together,
And love can last forever.
But now that I have found you I believe,
That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.
So gone are all my questions about why,
And i've never been so sure of anything in my life

Oh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.

Ooo ooo,I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,
With all my heart I'll be there too.
And from this moment on I want you to know,
I'll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.
So gone are all my questions about why
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/n/newsong/when_god_made_you.html ]
Oh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you,
I wonder if He knew everythin I would need,
Because He made all my dreams come true.
When God made you He must've been thinking about me.

He made the sun He made the moon,
To harmonize a perfect tune,
One can't do without the other they just have to be together.
And that is how I know it's true,
Your for me and i'm for you and my world
Just can't be right without you in my life

Oh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.

He must have heard every prayer I've been praying. He must've knew everything I would need

When God made you, He must've been thinking about me.

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/n/newsong/#share

having a coke with you...

is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz, Bayonne 

or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona
partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier St. Sebastian
partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for yoghurt
partly because of the fluoresent orange tulips around the birches
partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and statuary
it is hard to believe when I'm with you that there can be anything as still
as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front of it
in the warm New York 4 o'clock light we are drifting back and forth
between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles

and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint
you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them
                                                                                                    I look
at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in the world
except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it's in the Frick
which thank heavens you haven't gone to yet so we can go together the first time
and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care of Futurism
just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or
at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that used to wow me
and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them
when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when the sun sank
or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn't pick the rider as carefully
as the horse
                            it seems they were all cheated of some marvellous experience
which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you about it

-Frank O'Hara

so far.

i've sit around since easter thinking, i should write another post, it's been a while. i guess i'm doing it now.


God loves to look at us and loves it when we look back at him. even when we try to run away from our troubles God will find us, bless us, even when we feel most alone, unsure, God will find a way to let us know that He is with us in that place wherever we are.

i'm a green light.

KINGDOM COME.

I am resurrected with Christ I am rescued by Christ

Sydney has giant Lego, every little boys dream

We need to have no idols, we must leave everything for God

Salvation is impossible through a person, only God delivers us from evil and eternal hell

Elsie is so lame!

SIN IS A WASTE OF TIME. SATAN IS A THIEF. 

LET'S PLUNDER HELL

&

POPULATE HEAVEN

ohaii cute boys.

Auburn Salvation Army is pretty cool.

one kind word can warm three winter months.

Samantha Davis is a nutter. She is so much fun.

i got chills. they're multiplying and i'm loosing control.

we are all chosen, commissioned by God

as apart of the priesthood of all believers

to serve and honour him.

he is jealous for me. his love rushes around me and knows me to my knees
crushed by his mercy. when you encounter the love of God you are changed.
God wants to have an encounter with us. we are never the same after we
encounter the love of God. if you've experienced the Love of God you'd know
because you will have been changed.

i'm more concerned about who i am going to become than what i will do.

i think the thing that i am fearful of next year is being somewhere where i don't know people. where it's me without a million people around me who i can hang out with and talk to. making new friends? that's a pretty scary thought when i've not really had to be in the position of needing new friends for quite a few years.

elsie is gay.