the best of times.

who are you?

he plays piano.

i love lazy days. today i've cleaned my room at dads, cooked some breakfast/lunch, cleaned a bit more, brushed my teeth for 20 minutes, watched some girly movie. ahhhhh.

sometimes true love is right under your nose.

24 hours of trying to write this blog today and i have nothing.

my mind is so scrambled right now.

there are things.

i'm pretty excited to hang with currie on friday night.

it's gonna be a good friday night.

FOOD:
- pop tarts

- hash browns

- ben and jerrys

- much more.

the theme of the GOOD FRIDAY NIGHT. other than the death of JesusChrist.

FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS.

sfsdfsdfaewrsdf

pretty scrambled.

my brain.

my heart.

i'll be right.

my white friends.

red eye flashes twice.

malk.

Julian Smith is really quite hilarious. me and my mate @Elsie Currie really enjoy this man. i sometimes enjoy it because i will be sitting around at school and just start hurling abuse at someone but they don't know what to say. @Elsie knows that if i start yelling MAAAAAAAAAAAAAALK then i am quoting Julian Smith and am she yells back.

In fact, our hurling of abuse to each other doesn't just revolve around us quoting Julian Smith. we sometimes have these little compititions of who can be more mean to each other. it involves staring down. yelling. totally making fun of each other about serious things. yeah. we're big on being mean to each other. it's healthy...

i have this theory. don't mess with my friends or i'll mess with your face.

so i was a leader at the salvation army eastern victoria junior creative arts camp. it was mega fun. got to hang with some rad people. made some new rockin mates.

on tuesdayy after the concert chris, leah, jay, abi, haaaash brown, rhys, tim cam and me all went to amys house and partied. we all ate pizza and watched old tv. fawlty towers. then rhys, amy, cam and me took a nice little drive down to the boys houses. 

non alcoholic drinking games are funnnnn.

i feel like i don't have a lot to sayyyy.

ohhhhh 

thankful thursdayyys.

. amy-ruth. elsie currie. ashe powell. cam merrett. amanda merrett. chris elko. jacqui maunder. rhys mckenzie. pizza. big bang theory. fawlty towers. black and gold. dancing for fun. saying quench to elsie. being loved. talking to my mate josiah potter. making friends with the college girls. not missing samantha davis. asking harold to make me sammmwiches. julian smith. bo burnam. freddy prinz jr. watching movies. my sisters bed. having no voice. sleeping in. going to parties with miiiiranda. making plans to go out with mates.

what real friends do.

two of the better people in the world.

people.

Miiranda Jade Hocking-Smith 
so in 2009 life was pretty crap. there were situations in which people hurt me and situations in which i hurt people. and it wasn't good. i was close to moving schools, i looked at other schools. had a few interviews. went on heaps of tours. and was ready to run. then this emo looking chick rocked up to my school. she was 'quiet' to everyone and had a heap of make up on. she was paaaaaaale. me and this kidd started talking in lit when we did a miniature assignment together. cup of flower. pretty unique. she became really important to me really quick. we could act like insane people or be totally serious. whatever. we would draw pictures of us hanging out. we'd write hilarious stories, one line each. like i said, she became very important to me. over the last two years we went through ups and downs and they were all really similar. out of everyone in the world she was the one person i could tell everything to and she understood and we got each other and what was going on. i'm so blessed by her and so glad that God blessed my life by putting her in it. love her heaps.

frig.

because planning ahead is for teenage girls.

ninetyeight days until i'm eighteen.

ninetyfour days until my eighteenth.

i miss having dark hair. 

THANKFUL THURSDAY.

gilmore girls. watching julian smith on youtube. my mummy. getting mail. watching hilarious sit coms . cute boys. cute boys not on tv. Jesus. ben and jerrys ice cream. elsie aly because she makes me laugh a whole flippin heap. sammanda davis for pushing me to be better always. pianos for being fun. my sisters bed room. 

i feel like i keep repeating myself but i'm really excited about next year.

more and more it excites me. there is one negative point. i don't know

how the flip to survive without Elsie the thing is, is that she has sort of 

been this rock for me... she knows me pretty well and so i'm not 100% sure

how i'm gonna live next year without getting frozen yoghurt with her every

other week. but i am really excited about next year. i'm excited about sharing

a room with someone. i'm excited about living in community. i'm excited to 

learn new stuff. i'm excited to make new friends and form new relationships.

i'm excited about the idea of hanging with my mate spam if she goes too.

so i seem to love it in tv shows there is that bad boy who falls
for the gooder girl and then it's all beautiful and he tries to be
nicer and even though he's still badass (which is sort of hot)
he tries to be good for her :) i clearly watch too much tv.

pretty pretty pretty pretty. being a girl is fun.

 so the beautiful thing about being

a girl and also being apart of a wedding

is that i can look at wedding pictures and 

not feel totally lame. something i came 

across was hot as grooms men pictures.

i apparently have a type. coool.

so. 98 days. 18.

94 days. party.

next year. sydney.

three years. in love.

ten years. have a puppy.

all my years? love God.

toast.

i love toast.


Song of Songs 8:6-7
place me like a seal over your heart, like a seal upon your arm, for love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grace. it burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame. many waters cannot quench love, rivers cannot wash it away.


Psalm 63:3
because your love is better than life my lips will glorify you


Ecclesiastes 4:9-10
two is better than one, if one falls down, the other can help him up


Isaiah 53:9
he was oppressed and afflicted, yet he did not open his mouth; he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth


Jeremiah 1:5
before i formed you in the womb i knew you, before you were born i set you apart


Zephaniah 3:17
the LORD your GOD is with you, he is mighty to save. he will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing


Matthew 11: 12
the kingdom of heaven has been forcefully advancing and forceful men lay hold of it


Luke 6:27
but i tell you who hear me: LOVE your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who ill-treat you


Luke 9:23-24 
if anyone would come after me [JESUS], he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.


John 1:5
the light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it


John 3:16-17
for GOD so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. for GOD did not send his SON into the world to condemn the world but to save the world through him.


Romans 3: 21-26
but now a righteousness from GOD apart from law, has been made known, to which the law and the prophets testify. the righteousness from GOD comes from faith in JESUS CHRIST to all who believe. there is no difference for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of GOD and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by CHRIST. GOD presented him as a sacrifice of atonement through faith in his blood. he did this to demonstrate his justice because in his forbearance he had left the sings committed beforehand unpunished he did it to demonstrate his justice at the present time so as to be just and the one who justifies those who have faith in JESUS






pretty much. JESUS loves us. so much. and he died for us. because we do things that hurt GOD we deserve hell. which is intense and totally sucks. so JESUS came to earth and died for us so that we don't have to pay the price for our sins.


What an amazing GIFT. 


it is free to us. all we have to do is repent, which means say sorry and turn away from the bad stuff we do that hurts God. easy :)




love.

sterling.

the concept is quite beautiful.

so in the last few days we've all been chatting. 
we like to chat about lots of different things.
the latest thing we all seem to talk about is love.
love seems pretty great if you ask me. 
i've never been in love. but i think it'll be fun.

i would really enjoy being serenaded 

from my window. i would really enjoy 

someone falling in love with me. 

i would really enjoy those

  mint guys in the movies to exist :P

this is the love eyes. 

i love writing music. i don't think i'm terribly good at it. but when i'm just sitting at a piano and just play or just walk around my house while i'm alone and sing random lyrics that make a song. it's really fun, i love it. even when it amounts to nothing.

could you be my hero?

Things to do.

1. write the sermon... for tomorrow

2. write more music

3. stop being obsessed with corny disney movies

4. fill in application forms for next year

5. talk to elsie currie.

6. have a sleepover with sammy

7. do work for my food tech folio

8. write in my journal

9. fall madly in love

10. get married.

okay. so maybe the last to are a little over the top. i'll stick to the first 8 of those for now and maybe keep those last two locked away for another few years. or at least until the end of the year. 2012, sure. 2011? oh please, boyfriends are sooo 2012. 

hmm. 

i'm really excited to turn 18.

my party will be mega good.

11th june 2011.

yes. musicians are really quite attractive.

boy ones. i don't like female singers.

awks.

i just figure, if i want to listen to a girl sing... i'll sing to myself...

coz i'm not a boy...

OKAY-- I'm watching this movie which has Sterling Knight in it and he is really quite cool in the looks and music department. the acting in this movie is sooo bad, except for his, and he just broke this girls heart but then flew to her home town and sang at her school dance. and told everyone that he likes her, 'crazy about her' infact.

the most beautiful woman ever.

ribbons and curls.

my song. i wrote.

Amie.

I have this beautiful friend. Her name is Amie. She is my oldest friend High School wise, we've remained tight throughout the years and she knows me really quite well. We've gone through ups and downs, dealt with break ups, hook ups, heart break and crushes. She's one of the very few people I feel totally comfortable to tell her about everything that would embarrass me to tell anyone else.
Today I didn't get to see her because I didn't go to school, but she wrote a status on facebook which I really respect and has made me feel really good this evening and I want the world to see it!

Amie Vassiliou

Year 12 Students get asked 'How it's all going' constantly. Answer: I don't care. My life will not be dependent on Language Analysis, Univariate Statistics, Direct Brain Stimulation, The ATP-PC System or C.S. Lewis. I will not be standing in front of God on judgement day with skills in TEEL, Using a CAS Calculator, REM Sleep, The Aerobic System or Tsunami's, so No, I don't care about Year 12, and I refuse to.

It's so true. I'm not defined by this year. If I fail or if I pass, I will survive. If I get 100% or 10%, God still loves me, I still have my friends, I'm still a good person.
This year will not and can not define me.

me and my sister from another mister.
love max and luke.

bid a basket

most anticipated movie. beastly.

ribbons and curls.

i pretty much like the whole, living in the present, but there are things about being 17 that aren't that fun. i can't drive yet, so i can't go places easily without having to rely on everyone else. i can't get into gigs to see my friends bands without parental supervision, pretty lame. also i'm 17 in year 12 and at the moment there seems to be no point getting attached to things because i'm just going to leave i think. what if i liked a boy in melbourne but was set on going to sydney. then that would suck because it makes a doubt in my mind. ridiculous. 

women don't eat.

they look at food.

then jump on the treadmill.

yesterday i got to go out for lunch with some people in my mums session at college. it was pretty fun, mums formation group leader person/people are the Potters, so Josiah came and we got to hang... well we didn't for a while... we played a game. Here's how it goes...

there was a window and you could see the escalator go up and down from where we sitting through that window. so me and fran told jo to go and see how many times he could go up and down before the food got here.

eight. just by the way. that is how many

times you can go up and down the 

escalator while waiting for your food

at fasta pasta.

 little girl i've always wondered.
am i more than ribbons and curls

little girl i've always wondered. do i have any        worth.

 so i look to him who makes me who i am and i ask
of him who do you say i am. will i always be this little
girl or is there more to me and ribbons, ribbons and curls

i look around and all i see is people telling me who i should be and that little girl inside of me starts to cry out...