i'll go.

this weekend was one of the biggest weekends in the salvation army calendar. the commissioning and ordination of the salvation army officers. it's my favorite time of year. seeing people who have over come all obstacles and laying down their lives to follow the call of Christ on their lives.


i've been spreading this really cool advice lately, advice that i said was more for 'them' than for me. it's something like this:

don't feel like you need to wait to be in a relationship and heading to marriage to start your ministry. start your ministry and obey what God calls you to do and through that he will provide what/who you need. don't wait for the partner, start right away in what God wants you to do.

good advice i believe. but advice that i've been unwilling to really accept. in the last two days that has changed. and now this is where i stand:

i'll go, whenever, wherever, with or without someone, i'll go. it's not about my will, it's about is, it's not about my insecurities it's about his overwhelming power. there is no response to his grace that makes sense, other than to obey, no matter what the cost.

i see no logical response to the grace of God than to do what he has called me to do. 

-- so let's see where he leads me.