brutal.

i sometimes wish that i was the kind of person who brutally fights for what they want. not just when you go to a shop and fight for those size nine heals that you saw first. not just fighting to be with someone that you love. but fighting the good fight like paul wrote about in the bible. i want to be brutal. i want to be fierce. i would love to be intimidating. but really, most of all, i would love to be the kind of person who fights for what they want. there are things i want that i let slip away because being passive is easy, losing things is easy, once their lost it's hard to accept that, but fighting can be scary. and i have my fears, so many of them. so i want to be brutal and fight. i want to fight for what i want. and what i want is to have a heart for what God wants. 

GOD WANTS:

- everyone to encounter his love

- everyone to have a home

- everyone to live in freedom

- everyone to be released into his joy

- everyone to be fed

- everyone to have water

- everyone to be free of addictions

- everyone to be free from sickness

i want to want what God wants. i want to fight for it. i want to fight for justice so that every person can live under the freedom that comes from Christ and what he did. i want to fight for his love so that all can encounter it and know it, carrying that love inside me and allowing it to over flow into every aspect of my life. i want to fight for joy when happiness and other things in the world fail, for the joy of the lord to be the strength of the people, my strength. i want to fight for equality so that every person can have a meal, so that no one will go hungry and they will have the availability to the right of food. i want everyone to have clean water so that children won't die of sicknesses that are brought on by unclean water. i want to fight for a world that is free of addiction because in the kingdom of heaven there is no addiction and i am living within the kingdom. i want to fight for people to be healed from sickness in the name of Jesus because no matter where we are healing is in his hands.

"anyone who sets himself up as religious by talking a good game is self deceived. this kind of religion is hot air and only hot air, real religion, the kind that pleases God the Father is this: reach out the homeless and the loveless and guard against corruption from the Godless world, I can't stand your religious meetings, I'm fed up with your conferences and conventions, I want nothing to do with your religion projects, your pretentious slogans and goals. I'm sick of your fundraising schemes and public relations and image making. I've had all I can take of your noisy ego music when was the last time you sung to me? do you know what I want, I want justice, oceans of it, I want fairness, rivers of it. that's what I want. that's all I want."

While women weep, as they do now, I'll fight; while little children go hungry, as they do now, I'll fight; while men go to prison, in and out, in and out, as they do now, I'll fight; while there is a drunkard left, while there is a poor lost girl upon the streets, while there remains one dark soul without the light of God, I'll fight-I'll fight to the very end!

-- william booth

so let's get brutal. the kingdom of heaven is forcefully advancing. and forceful people take hold of it. let's be brutal.